Friday, August 19, 2011

I've been wondering

I constantly wonder how my life looks in other people's eyes. Do they think I have it easy? Do they think I have nothing going on for myself? Or are they fascinated with who I am?

The thing is that no one will ever know my whole story. No one will ever know the things I've had to overcome- Not even my closest friends, not even my own family. The thing is that people are so quick to judge now a days. You only see a person from what they want and allow you to see. I always try to looks ad put together as I can, and I guess that's my way of hiding from the truth.

It's just that, that way everyone will assume that everything in my life is okay. That I never go through anything. I only everyone knew how broken I am, and how I'm holding on for dear life on this one last strand and that's recently become very delicate. The truth is that no one really knows me. No one will ever know me, and sometimes that scares me, because no one will ever know why I am the way I am

Remembered

I remember one morning getting up at dawn
There was such a sense of possibility and I remember thinking to my self
So, this is the beginning of happiness.
This is where it starts
And ofcourse there always be more.
Its never occurred to me
It wasn't the beginning
It was the moment
It was happiness
Right then...
I hate that feelings when you're about to cry and someone asks you if there's anything wrong to cheer you up and you try to smile but you just physically can't do it and eventually the effort of trying to smile for this one person has the tears spilling over. It makes me feel so defeated by life when I can't find the strength to smile in those moments.

I like it...


  • when the stars are sparkling so bright at night . It's overwhelming
  • when your tea tastes just right and it warms your organs up
  • falling asleep to the sound of rain
  • listening to songs that give you chills down your spine
  • laughing forever until your stomach can't take it anymore
  • photographs of beautiful moments/memories
  • running with no destination. Just running
  • sitting in the shower and just letting the water flow through your skin
  • warm jackets

It all just cross my mind~

I'm so tired of people needing a reason for doing everything in their lives. Do it because you want to. Because it's fun. Because it makes you happy.

That's the best revenge of all: Happiness
Nothing drives people crazier than someone have a good fckin live {}

I'm a teenager. 
I don't need a perfect love story, I want adventure. 
I want fun

While someone breaks your heart...
Another someone is waiting to fix it

A girl doesnt need someone who doesn't need her

I just online on my tumblr and I've read some posts and those are the posts. And actually they're crossing in my mind for sure :)

Believe me, God save us for the perfect one for us ;) ({})


Tuesday, August 16, 2011

It sucks when you miss that person so much that you look through old photos, old text messages, even old statuses. And it bring a smile to your face but then the hurt comes back and you know you shouldn't be looking back, but you can't help it because they really meant something to you and you thought it would of lasted